"Wait! ...You um...you can't! ...We have DNR orders. Oh, God...we...we have DNR orders in place..."
"Do you have a copy with you?"
"No. I was...um...I was on the roof when I got the call. I didn't think to go into the house to grab her paperwork."
"Well...if we can't intubate, we can't do anything else for her here. Let's get her over to the hospital." They began preparing to move her into the ambulance.
I was back on the phone with shaking hands. "Hon? ...Uh...Shit just got real... They need to intubate and I had to tell them to stop. I wasn't ready for this today..."
"You want me over there? I can be there in a minute."
"No. Ummm...we're...we're headed out to the hospital, anyway. I just...I just... I don't know. I wasn't ready."
"You can tell them to go ahead and intubate."
"...No...I think we made the right decision...I just...this wasn't supposed to happen today."
"Right... I love you. Keep me posted. Keep breathing. Give her a kiss for me. It'll be okay. You're doing a good job, hon."
...while doing everything, whether it's reading...
But most of all, there's love...
lots and lots of love!